Venting

Here's my 29 week pic....



I had my 30 week doctor appointment yesterday. My blood pressure is good. The fundal height is good. The baby's heartbeat is good. I had gained 3.5 pounds since my last appointment - not good.

During my first appointment, the doctor said, "I wouldn't mind if you lost 20 pounds this pregnancy." Silly me....I thought that was merely a suggestion. I didn't realize that it was really what she wanted me to do. I had lost 22 pounds before yesterday's appointment and I gained 3.5 back. So, I'm still really close to that 20 pound mark.

I know that it is good for the baby for me to keep the weight down, so I will. I'm just going to miss that nightly bowl of ice cream.....

It's Love!

I'm sitting here on the couch, feeling my baby girl move, listening to the dog snore, and watching my husband play something about saving the world on his Playstation. All the while, all I can think about is how much I love my family. I love my husband and I love my dog. I love the baby girl that we had that is now in heaven and I love the baby girl that is currently growing inside of me.

Quite frequently, I think about the list that I made before I started dating my husband. I jotted down the things that I wanted in a man and I can honestly say that God gave me the perfect man for me. He is wonderful. He is going to be such an awesome daddy. He has so much love for me and I really appreciate him every single day.

Thank You, God, for the wonderful man that you gave me.



Thank You, God, for giving us a baby girl that is in heaven right now. I still don't understand all of the why's of what happened, but I do know that I will always love her and that I will get to spend eternity with her. And, I thank You for that promise.

Thank You, God, for the baby girl that is growing inside of me. Thank You that she is whole, healed, and perfect. Thank You for the plans that You already have for her.

Thank You, God, for giving me a dog that I didn't really know that I needed in my life, but who has helped me through so much. I never would have guessed the day that I chose him at the pound that I would become so attached to him.



Thank You, God, for my perfect family. Thank You for bringing each and every member of my family together. I love them!